First let me pray —
Abba, i ask in Jesus name that your Spirit would be in this tiny post to make it something big. Abba, please help me to get out my heart and let there be zero confusion to the reader. I aim to give you my heart Father , here it is please have it, I surrender all to You!
In Yeshuahs name.
I need a place for my heart to spill and I want everyone to see it . So that more Glory might be lifted to the Lamb for all He has done and continues to do through and in me.
I want to declare some things to you. I want to show you my heart so bear with me as that is super hard to do for me especially on a blog.. Plus I don’t even know who reads blogs .
I have been away from usual comforts and my family for almost 6 months now. I left home expecting to return home and stay home. I left home expecting to ‘hopefully know more of what God has for me’.
But my Abba wasn’t going to skip out on this opportunity I gave Him to completely ravish my heart , as well as to reveal more of Himself to me.
I wish to post about my time in New Zealand but Thailand is first.
We arrived here and immediately God showed up. I met a man named Book and Jesus healed his hand and revealed that scripture is legit ! Aha that was our first bus ride.
We then headed to the first ministry we were to serve. She Ministry (http://www.shethailand.org)
Being aware of what DTS I was a part of ( Justice focus) I still thought to myself , I will never do bar ministry in the red light district, but I was wrong and am so thankful that I was.
I am a man.
That means that I like woman, and at a point in my life not to long ago hmm about 6 months I was messing around with girls and acting completely contrary to who I am, as well as hurting people along the way.
I had an addiction. Addicted to hidden interaction with females. I wasn’t planning on going into this part of my life but the Spirit and I BURN AND LONG to show you that:
FREEDOM exists in Holy Spirit and the blood of Jesus put TOGETHER!
Those two Holy Ones should never be separate in our approach to ABBA.
We headed out our first night to prayer walk Bangla Road, witch is just the face of the sex industry in Phuket, I am positive there are brothels everywhere there but we focused on the woman and men prostituting themselves on Bangla road.
I was … to say the least scared of what was about to happen, but chose to completely surrender to Him, I said
” HOLY SPIRIT I NEED YOU, I DONT WANT TO LUST I DONT WANT MY FLESH TO RULE. I NEED YOUR GRACE ( GODS EMPOWERING PRESENCE). “
As soon as we got in the back of the truck to head down to prayer walk around 8pm to the red light district, witch looks like a lot of open bars and stripper poles that are occupied by young woman, I immediately started praying in tongues and didn’t stop all night. I wasn’t giving my flesh an inch let alone a centimeter. I asked God for His heart for His children, EVEN THE MEN ( I still struggle with men here but I am writing that to say forgive me Papa ahah!)
I got home that night after seeing more than I bargained for but at the same time , I was so confused why I felt zero guilt or shame and felt zero lust … DID THE HOLY SPIRIT ACTUALLY WORK!!? AHAHAHAAHAHAHHAH
OF FREAKING COURSE HE DID!
From that day and into that month I realized there are FREEDOMS AND TRUTHS that are not lived out or taught enough in church ( who knows why? but I am not here to know why , I know how to get out of it and thats all that matters)
- FLESH IS SUBJECT TO THE HOLY SPIRIT!
- HOLY SPIRIT IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN A SERMON!
- Its not NATURAL TO SIN! I WASNT MADE TO SIN THEREFORE ITS NORMAL FOR ME TO NOT SIN AND THATS WHY IT DOESNT FEEL WEIRD TO BE LOVING ON SOMEONE WITH ABBAS HEART WHILE A GIRL STRIP DANCES LITERALLY RIGHT NEXT TO YOUR SEAT!
- ABBAS LOVE FOR THESE CHILDREN AND ME IS NOT JUST WORDS AND HIS LOVE IS JUST AS INFINITE FOR US AS HE IS INFINITE AND NEVER ENDING. HIS LOVE IS BIGGER THAN the
- WE HAVE BEEN GIVEN THE AUTHORITY TO CANCEL OUT EVERYTHING THE oppressor HAS DONE TO THESE INNOCENT CHILDREN. WHEN YOU ASK FOR HIS HEART YOU GET IT, I HAVE WEPT FOR THESE PRECIOUS SONS AND DAUGHTERS because its beyond just being passionate about GOOD deeds. I could care less if anyone sees my good deeds, all i want is HIM TO SEE MY DEEDS POUR FROM MY HEART FULL OF HIM AND FULL OF RELATIONSHIP. I DONT JUST simply care FOR THESE PEOPLE , I AM READY TO GIVE UP EVERYTHING FOR NOT JUST SOME BUT ALL OF THESE PEOPLE. I LOVE ALL OF THEM, LOVE LOVE LOVE.
This is not a fleeting feeling , this not a post to raise support, this is not a post to hopefully get you to go to church, this not a post to show you how Holy i am, ( although I am being transformed from glory to glory ;) ), this post is to show you YOU NEED TO GET ALONE WITH ABBA and GET OUT THERE AND EXECUTE THE devil! THATS YOUR CALLING!
he has stolen from you christian.
if you have sickness , if you have addiction, if you have money problems. NONE OF THOSE THINGS ARE THE WILL OF OUR FATHER!
the devils job is to kill/steal/destroy
God does not allow affliction. WE do. QUIT allowing satan to rule your heart and your life, PICK UP YOUR SWORD AND FIGHT!
PEOPLE NEED YOU!
EVERYONE AROUND YOU NEEDS YOU TO STEP INTO YOUR IDENTITY AS A SON OF GOD.
THE HOLY SPIRIT LIVES IN YOU, LET THE RIVER FLOW!
there are no more questions my friends , HE IS IN US.
ALL I WANT IS TO BE A PAPA!^^^
SO my next post will be about stuff thats good too,
- I AM FREE FROM LUST AND PAST WAYS OF TREATING WOMEN WRONG
- . I wanna dig into how we truly get HIS HEART and how WE NEED to quit bringing BUDDHIST teachings into Abbas houses.
- AS well as a massage story, a story of a homeless man, a story of a women who had two dreams of me, and how
WE ARE VICTORIOUS BECAUSE HE TREDS DOWN OUR ENEMIES! PSALMS 108